About halfway through my run last night, I decided that I am going to pick a word that encompasses each of my runs on this journey. Today’s word is ‘surprise’.
If you told me even two months ago that I’d be running two miles without stopping AND without feeling like I wanted to die, I would have laughed in your face. I have been running since 2012, and never have I ever believed I’d be able to run a mile in a single go, let alone two, even three. It’s taken me three years to finally figure out the running mental game and last night It was quite the surprise that I wasn’t, in fact dead, dying, or otherwise in any kind of mortal peril.
The run, in fact, felt amazing.
I have been so surprised in myself, my ability, and my body these last few weeks. I have been a (slow) runner for years and this is the first time in my life that it all feels natural, comfortable, and right. Tonight’s run was 13:30 paced the whole time, a minute faster than my usual, and I ran the duration – sans stopping to let a car go by me.
I have said running is mental. It’s also personal. I think the biggest road block in my way was… Me. My belief that I couldn’t improve, that I wasn’t good enough, that I’d never run a mile and I’d be always the walk/runner no mater what I did or how hard I trained… I was in my own way.
Once I stepped out of my own path, it’s been an entirely different world.
Surprise yourself. It feels good.